Buffalo shooting leaves feelings of dread

It makes me disgusted that Payton Gendron decided that he could walk into a supermarket and start shooting.

This shows that personalized social media and delusion allowed him to think that his opinion was what was actually happening (POC taking over white people’s jobs). The fact that he planned to shoot at Tops because of the a high rate of people of color who shop there is scary.

It makes me lose hope that we are progressing as a society and brings a sinking feeling to my stomach.

It feels like a dream where we hear about the same things again and again that we have become normalized to it and unless the perpetrator does something this extreme we won’t react. Gendron makes me feel chills up and down my body that someone can have so much hate build inside them. His lack of education and awareness astounds me that he can be high school educated yet still blind to a basic moral compass.

It seems that most people cannot understand the balance of harmony in their lives and empathy towards other people.

It makes me tired to have to see the same thing again and feel like I am stuck in the endless cycle of not being able to do anything; I feel insignificant to the bigger movements and I am patiently waiting for my chance to educate those who are naive. Then again, it should not have to be my job to educate them: they should be curious and want to educate themselves.